What is This Deepness?
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What is this deepness? this aching longing in the center of my chest? …can you feel it too, my friend?
Bono says “I still haven’t found what I’m looking for” – thank you brother. Have YOU found what you’re looking for my brother or sister who is reading this right now?
The masters tell us that we are what we seek, that we are already at the destination, but can you feel it? Have you arrived? No. I dare to guess that in that deep place within yourself you have to admit that you haven’t arrived. I gaze downward; I am in, inside myself as I mourn this with you. It feels good to mourn this.
Buddha taught us about the cycle of suffering, the many wheels we get on. There are many of these Merry Go Rounds, better to call them Suffering-Go-Rounds. It is good to identify which ones are your favorites and here’s why – you can get offof them once you know you’re on them. One of my favorite authors Anthony De Mello in his great book Awareness The Way to Love
Let’s walk through an obvious example. I see a woman I’m attracted to, she likes me too, how nice. We start seeing each other; we give each other pleasure, even nicer. I like this, she does too, hmmm, I’m feeling a little attached now, things are starting to glow. This feels good and I’m a simple guy so I go for it. I let myself be attached. But I am more than attached now, I am even fulfilled and satisfied, I’ve got it bad. Then, how long does it take? Doesn’t matter really. Eventually hell sets in, hell can be boredom, disenchantment, whatever. We’ve all gone down this road many times, and many of us are looking to go down it again. Can another person, or anything outside of ourselves really satisfy our hearts in a permanent way? No, but you need to find that out for yourself. Good news though - cheating is allowed, you can fast forward this DVD, or you can keep looking for the other person, thing or situation that will, at last, satisfy that ache in your heart. Good luck my friend because you will need it.
What most of us don’t know is there is a deeper joy, more like bliss and the deepest peace and it is totally, perfectly satisfying.
Getting there might require some unpleasantness, but there is no amount of suffering that is not worth it. A first step is we have to SEE that whatever Suffering Go Round we are on will never satisfy us in a deep way. We have to see this deeply and clearly. Then, we have to let go of the dream. Letting go of the fairy tales hurts. Every rite of passage hurts somewhere in us. But where we are going, we can’t bring our illusions. Buddha talks about the “sure hearts release” - that inner discovery that satisfies the heart completely. I have tasted this, I have had sneak previews of it, many of you have too and I am now forever ruined because of it. I am happily ruined for all that is false, for all the seductions of this life that won’t deliver. This is the journey that I invite you to join me in, may we all be ruined in this way.
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My Deepness This Day
This day I stood atop my mountain with my white wolf by my side. I raised my arms above head and released my fear, frustration and heavy heart. I listened closely to my Master’s voice for the pure instruction. In concert with His words, tender tears of gratefulness silver on my cheek, I opened my eyes.
Today another day to blissfully exist~
Beautiful words Syren, thank you for your bliss!